Happy but sad

Happy because it is finished but sad because I did not finish it the way I had planned.I am filled with lots of uncertainty with her .I imagined her larger,doubled this size.From the last pictures all I managed to do was an extra one row across and one row down plus added a red border.I love the border it seems to make the colours much more harmonious. Not sure if I should make it a little thicker, perhaps I should wait until it has been blocked.

I love the yarn, it has such a silky soft texture love the colour ,my motif but I started to get terribly bored.Every time I started I just fell out of love with making her.His highness suggested I put it away and come back to it but I knew if I did that she would become a unfinished project that would glare at me , making me feel guilty everytime I spotted her.You know what i mean that guilt over spending a little bit too much on this project, guilt that you have bought new yarns and moved onto another baby. I was bought up as a catholic, guilt comes with the territory.

OK, I am going to stop feeling sad and just be happy that she is colourful soft and luxurious and beautiful. She is going to be my shawl I use on those chilly airplane trips and as she has a purpose I already feel better.Now, every time I see her I know we will be together on those long haul flights to sunnier climates I am smiling at the thought.Yeah, I feel better already.