Thank you all for your kind comments and wonderful words of wisdom . You forget that others have been through similar experiences and learning that has helped me enormously.So thank you very very much.I really cant tell you how wonderful it has been to open up to you all ,I've decided I will be doing this more regularly it seems to help open. I'm thinking a bit clearer. I have always written in a diary since I was a child but never shared any thoughts and feeling before.
Every since my RSI was diagnosed I have had to stop typing, crocheting .Not doing the latter has been the hardest to deal with and I think I've got to admit I have been feeling rather lost , this sense of loss has resulted in wanting to feel happier either by baking, (I have quite literally gone baking mad.)Drinking and eating more. This has ended with me packing on 8 extra pounds of weight. I usually follow the 5;2 diet and decided to start again in the New year
Well , we are well into the New Year and I started exactly after New Years day, I was doing so well then yesterday we decided to go out for a drive .We drove to Oxford to The Manoir aux Quat'Saisons for a special lunch treat and of course diet was broken between us we drank two bottles of Prosecco ate gorgeous food I had a wonderful time but all I can think about is being over weight .I hate these feelings of insecurity. I hate waking up and instead of being thankful for life I'm so down on myself. I just cant seem to give myself a break. I mean it is ridiculous to base my happiness on the fact I cant wear clothes that don't have lots of elastic , ha ha. I'm not a glass half empty kind of gal yet lately that is how I feel. I suppose this all coincides with my feelings about Christmas.
I didn't realise just how important crocheting and yarn means to me. I just cant imagine a life without designing .I love buying my yarn and I honestly think these low feelings aren't a coincide with my lack of crafting . So I put my hand in its brace and did these
and what do know I feel so much better. I made them in different stitch patterns just to make it a bit more interesting .For the people who don't understand why anyone would want to make their own dishcloths, I know this will seem strange but actually it isn't what you make it is the fact that you are making something.
Ooh and by the way today is my weight day and Ive lost 3.5 lbs .