Thank you all for your kind comments and wonderful words of wisdom . You forget that others have been through similar experiences and learning that has helped me enormously.So thank you very very much.I really cant tell you how wonderful it has been to open up to you all ,I've decided I will be doing this more regularly it seems to help open. I'm thinking a bit clearer. I have always written in a diary since I was a child but never shared any thoughts and feeling before.
Every since my RSI was diagnosed I have had to stop typing, crocheting .Not doing the latter has been the hardest to deal with and I think I've got to admit I have been feeling rather lost , this sense of loss has resulted in wanting to feel happier either by baking, (I have quite literally gone baking mad.)Drinking and eating more. This has ended with me packing on 8 extra pounds of weight. I usually follow the 5;2 diet and decided to start again in the New year
Well , we are well into the New Year and I started exactly after New Years day, I was doing so well then yesterday we decided to go out for a drive .We drove to Oxford to The Manoir aux Quat'Saisons for a special lunch treat and of course diet was broken between us we drank two bottles of Prosecco ate gorgeous food I had a wonderful time but all I can think about is being over weight .I hate these feelings of insecurity. I hate waking up and instead of being thankful for life I'm so down on myself. I just cant seem to give myself a break. I mean it is ridiculous to base my happiness on the fact I cant wear clothes that don't have lots of elastic , ha ha. I'm not a glass half empty kind of gal yet lately that is how I feel. I suppose this all coincides with my feelings about Christmas.
I didn't realise just how important crocheting and yarn means to me. I just cant imagine a life without designing .I love buying my yarn and I honestly think these low feelings aren't a coincide with my lack of crafting . So I put my hand in its brace and did these
and what do know I feel so much better. I made them in different stitch patterns just to make it a bit more interesting .For the people who don't understand why anyone would want to make their own dishcloths, I know this will seem strange but actually it isn't what you make it is the fact that you are making something.
Ooh and by the way today is my weight day and Ive lost 3.5 lbs .
Congratulations! Looks like life is slowly finding balance for you again. I love crochet dishcloths, and what a lovely way to start hooking again - I'm currently making some for my kitchen, too! Chrissie x
ReplyDeleteWell done you for your weight loss, I know (trust .e, I KNOW) how hard this is, so you should be pleased with that. However! You are right, your happiness should not be based on a number, if you like smaller numbers that is fine, but you should do what YOU want. I am so sorry that you are restricted in your crocheting because of your RSI, is there anything that can be done about it? Now that I have found crochet I think I would be lost without it, so you have my sympathy. Love your pretty dishcloths by the way! Keep going and take care. ((Hugs)). xx
ReplyDeleteWhat a shame about your RSI, it must be awful to not be able to crochet and I understand the feeling of being lost without it. Your washcloths are so pretty though and I am glad you were able to make them.
ReplyDeleteHave a lovely weekend.
Marianne x
I made a selection of crochet dishcloths as presents last year - still using mine as it washes so well. I've also made a couple of face clothes in pure cotton.
ReplyDeleteHave a great weekend. x
I used to weigh myself everyday, it was a habit.
ReplyDeleteThen one day I threw the scales away and now have no idea exactly what I weigh.
I had been listening to an interview with Paul Mckenna and followed his suggestion of eating much slower for a few days until it became a habit.
Sounds odd but it has worked for me and I don't seem to worry about weight anymore.
Love your dishcloths, they are something on my "to make" list for 2014.
Well done on losing the weight, but don't be too hard on yourself! I think I always bake more and gain weight during the winter. I can understand how not being able to crochet would make you feel down but what you created in those few hours is just beautiful. x
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry to hear about your RSI, lots of love being sent your way to hope you feel better soon. I'm so glad you liked the link and downloaded the unravelling stuff...I hope you find it as useful as I have. My word for 2014 is abundance..! So far it seems to be applying to the rain and the amount of food I'm eating! Hahaha...back to the 5:2 for me too! lots of love xx
ReplyDeleteI am really sorry to hear you have RSI, I could imagine you would feel lost by not being able to crochet as much...I know I would, but it sounds like you are learning to balance things a bit :)
ReplyDeleteTake care!
Splendid! Congratulations on your weight loss believe me I know that sort of news can make your day!
ReplyDeleteNO crochet!! oh dear me that would be a dark cloud in my life the day I couldn't crochet ...truly I feel for you!
I've been browsing around your blog and I have to say I'm impressed lots and lots of really lovely makes!!
I'm now your latest follower :-)
keep well and a very happy New year
Amanda x
That is wonderful news about the weight loss! Good for you. I understand how you feel about not being able to crochet. I really dislike when something gets between me and my ability to craft for awhile. Hang in there, you're doing great. :)
ReplyDeleteHello lovely!! You have really struck a chord with me today as I have a lot of understanding how loosing what you do alters the person you are and it is bloody tough!! My heart goes out to you and somehow I hope you find strength to reconnect with some other passions within you, whether it is just to do a little yoga or do indulge in a good book or just to sit and meditate for twenty minutes. I used to seriously do singletrack mountain biking and busy myself with rock climbing and working and when I fell ill my whole persona died too. It is funny how we can't connect with certain aspects of ourselves without being able to do certain things, but the thing is we can. It is just part of our journey and I hope you find strength to get there lovely. Sending you much love xoxo
ReplyDeleteHello Helda
ReplyDeleteI've just discovered you're my new follower, and so glad I've found you. I've been looking around blogland to see how I first saw your post as I'd been wondering how you were. Thank you for your recent comment on my post by the way - several similarities between us. Have a good weekend. xx